Eyes

The window to the soul....and yet, for my boy, often clouded by tears that just won't drain. My poor Ryan-boy.

Today, Chris came with me, and we took Ryan to the opthamologist about his clogged tear duct. Basically, most of the time it unclogs itself by 6 months, but his hasn't. (Actually, at 4 months it went away in both eyes, but at 6 months came back in only his right eyt). Soooo. The doctor said that's definately what it is, and that it will require surgery to fix it.

[In my head: "WHAT??? SURGERY ON MY LITTLE BABY...HE'LL BE PUT TO SLEEP?!?!?!?!ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!?!].

In reality I said, "so it won't fix itself?". His answer was probably not, and waiting until after their birthday is a bad thing because the effectiveness of the surgery goes down after age 1. If done before 12 months it is 90% effective, after 12 months, 60% effective. So, surgery it is--first thing in January. The real problem, apart from the constant gunk, is that the constant gunk signifies infection. Continual infection in the eye can lead to scaring.

Other than the annoyance of his eyes being dilated, he's been in good spirits today (even though we were there for 2 hours through his nap time). He is so sweet. We also found out he's a little near-sighted, but nothing they're are worried about yet. Geesh. If it's not one thing it's another....

Please pray for peace in my heart, even though I know this is "no big deal" and "so minor", I am still worried and know I will be so upset seeing him in the hospital and put under.

I've heard it before and it's so true..."To be a mother is to forever have your heart walking around outside of your body".